polyphony.

2008-01-30T02:00:00.001-05:00

2007-10-03T13:35:00.000-04:00

ERROR 404:please redirect your cares and concerns here.jesus loves you.

2007-09-28T16:26:00.000-04:00

Barnes & Noble, Bubbles & Butts.so yesterday after work, i decided i was gonna make a run to B&N to pick up the new issue of Entrepreneur.big mistake.get to the store, find the mag (and a few others to flip through) and sit down on a reading bench to start my usual Borders/B&N process. about 5 minutes in, my stomach turns. i don't know why (i have some theories though), i hadn't had much to eat

2007-09-26T13:46:00.000-04:00

part 2 of 3(part one is at steady starving if you care. i'll keep it nip&tuck here)i'm very disoriented right now. it seems like every thing that's going bad in my life is starting to overlap. the mental self preservation is starting to kick in; i want to run from it all at top speed. just put on some air rifts and run.music is making me tired. on a larger scale, life just has me winded. i keep

2007-07-24T09:57:00.002-04:00

you gotta be kidding me.SMH.

2007-07-16T10:48:00.000-04:00

i wanna. i wanna design. create. all the time. i wanna be good at it.i think i can.i bought a copy of mass appeal yesterday, and i read it pratically cover to cover. i was suddenly thrust back to 1998 when i was young, fresh outta highschool and believing in the moment, all it had to offer.you know?like, i wasn't so absorbed by doldrums, anxiety regarding the future. that's the best time for

2007-07-16T10:26:00.000-04:00

i have a bad habit of leaving my ATM card home.actually, it forces me to save money, so it's not horrible. but being out without access to funds is a depressing state to endure.especially now, because i'm HUNGRY.____anyway. another day in the clink. work sucks. the area around my desk smells like fresh fart, the phone has been ringing off the hook, i'm hungry (see above), and it's only 10:28.i

2007-07-06T14:32:00.000-04:00

fine?without question.complete with the hermes birkin.FINE.

2007-06-26T23:40:00.000-04:00

lolghost face killaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah © ODB

2007-06-26T13:48:00.000-04:00

..nothing fantastic to report.i realized today that i have too many blogs with no explicit purpose. i have 3 that i update relatively regularly, and before each entry i wonder which blog is best suited for the discussion i'm preparing to engage in.it's way too much hassle. but 2 of the 3 blogs have so much of my history logged that i can't afford to shed them, and the third is so cool and sexy

2007-06-23T01:38:00.000-04:00

copped.

2007-06-22T11:42:00.000-04:00

another week in the books.just got paid...it's friday night...a well deserved weekend of enjoyment on the way.i'm prolly gonna do a little shopping after work today, get fresh mode. i really want a pair of jordans. we'll see though.tonight i'm thinking about grabbin' a carshare whip & going to see rich medina spin @ the arts garage.after that, i'll probably head back home and get some sleep, '

2007-06-12T14:40:00.001-04:00

i need to read more.so, over the next few months, i'm going to give myself (what i hope to be) beneficial reading assignments.1st up will be Niccolò Machiavelli's The Prince.after that, i'm gonna check Stephen R. Covey's The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People.i have a feeling they will be slow reads, but i think i could learn a lot from both, and i prefer applicable reading to fiction and

2007-06-09T21:54:00.000-04:00

seen in rittenhouse square:dude having his lamborghini towed away. maybe i'm crazy. but i saw that car up on that flatbed and i totally saw me owning that shit. fuckin' beautiful. i need some dough.i'm assuming it belonged to the white haired guy in the shorts and long socks. i saw a lot of ballers today. i want to be one.peep the butterfly doors:*hate**love*5 years nigga.____i bought some new

2007-06-08T10:54:00.000-04:00

i think i lost 2 friends this past weekend.it's some hurtful ass shit, but i guess, if that's what it is, that's what it is.in other news, i took half a day today. i gotta make some runs, pay off a debt, and then spend a lil guapamoley on myself to compensate for the tremendous depression i've been enduring.nah i'm tryna be happy man.niggas ain't stealing my sunshine.not even if you run up on me

2007-06-06T14:03:00.000-04:00

an unforseen boost in the economy has been attributed to overflowing boxes of paper.yep.so my job finally did what i've been asking them to do since like, february or so, and opened up overtime for a few folks who want to contribute to the "A Paperless PCA" project, where we scan 7 years worth of client documentation into a massive database, and catalog it via various criterion.previously they'd

2007-05-14T02:56:00.000-04:00

i produced it.tm rocked it.its a beautiful thing.DOWNLOAD AND LOVE! ITS FREE!!!courtesy of FWMJ (fantastic artwork, frank) @ www.rappersiknow.com.

2007-05-01T09:46:00.000-04:00

okay.i have a dilemma.a coworker wants me to type something up for him. something personal, having nothing to do with PCA or PCA's focus.further, he asked me to do it over my lunch break.you're wondering where the dilemma is?he offered to take me to lunch. i'm pretty tight right now. like i'm seriously sitting on less than $10 to ride out the rest of the week cause i'm trying to hold on to some

2007-04-26T15:35:00.000-04:00

yo.i really wanna do some important shit, man. or like, not even important. i just want to do some things that register. like i just wanna be involved in stuff, but not other people's stuff so much as i wanna have my own stuff popping off that other people want to be involved in.i know, it's very amorphous and cryptic, but that's the best way i can describe.i got really inspired today reading

2007-04-16T10:17:00.000-04:00

aight.i'm going on a diet this week, starting today.summer?come get it.

2007-04-12T11:41:00.000-04:00

oh snap.i just realized Dilla's One Eleven is exactly one minute and and eleven seconds long. i'm probably really late with that. well, as late as you can be on an album that was officially released just over a year ago.anyway.what's good?yo this is officially the longest week in the history of april 2007s. sheesh. it's like groundhog day, 'cept today instead of just being cold, it's raining too.

2007-04-10T03:24:00.000-04:00

http://www.rappersiknow.com/GRAB THAT WITH GOOD REASON!

2007-04-09T12:57:00.001-04:00

so...tonight i'm going to attempt to begin living like a human being.don't ask me to expound. just know that it's very necessary.__interesting developments in the everyday life. lots to blog about, but not so much stuff that i'd like to go public with. this is what results when your internet life and your "real" life are so tightly intertwined. one is always in earshot of the other, and only the

2007-03-05T09:22:00.000-05:00

27.27.another one in the books.another one waiting to be written.yep.

2007-01-05T09:50:00.000-05:00

OH GOD.my supervisor is micromanaging.i don't need this at THIS point in my life. it's a new year, we're already gonna regress me back to my chaby days?they gon' make me get blatant and have the job search on full screen. don't play with me, i am not the motherf%cking one.the nerve of people, yo.

2007-01-03T11:09:00.000-05:00

woke up this morning...and boy did i not want to continue in my current mode of life a SECOND more.i know it was a half-asleep notion, but for a split second i seriously thought about quitting and moving back home.i just ain't feel like going to work.anyway, i'm here, day's chugging along smoothly and i look and smell good, i ain't complaining.____i been thinking about school again. i know, i'm

2007-01-02T12:53:00.000-05:00

2007.yep.another year in the books.i started this blog in august of 2002. 5 years ago!!! not exactly five years, but 4 and change, 5 for all intents and purposes.wow.i'm gonna be 27 in 3 measly months. 27. i remember when my sister turned 27, i thought she was old as the hills. i know better now, she'll be 30 in april and yo, she young and in charge. damb that, we are not old. it just sounds

2006-12-21T11:11:00.000-05:00

sometimes i be like, why blog?'cause you open yourself up to a bunch of folks taking shots at your personal thoughts, offering unsolicited advice, etc, whateva whateva.but if i can't handle that, i aint shit right?and on top of that, just maybe these niggas is right.coo.____it's been said that i have communication issues.i'll be honest, i don't like spending a whole lotta time laying bare my soul

2006-12-13T13:01:00.000-05:00

people.what is wrong with people?people are weird. and dramatic. and they're self absorbed and selfish. and they make demands they shouldn't be making, and they're inconsiderate, and inconsistent, and untrustworthy, and conniving.sometimes they're good confidantes. sometimes they're sexy. and sometimes they come through in a pinch, some more than others. sometimes you find that person that's

2006-12-12T10:50:00.000-05:00

there's a conclusion i finally came to, and i went thru a range of emotions in the process of coming to that conclusionfirst i felt silly for wanting anything other than feeling deeply in love.i had it in my head that love was, and always would, and *should* be enough--all the feeling cherished and adored and fully understood were extras that u were fortunate to have if u had em.so, i tried to

2006-11-06T11:48:00.000-05:00

there's no room for fee-lings, yall in this house of biz-ness yall © dwele i looked hustle in the face over the weekend man.from three different angles.i went to nyc to see a show my niggas TM did for the CMJ weekend.the battery is recharged. on like, a whole nother level.see, the best thing you can do when you're trying to reconfigure your approach to scrappin' for a better future, is hang

2006-10-04T10:29:00.000-04:00

on some one post a month sht.i really need to stop staying up late.not only is it making it hard for me to get up on time in the morning, it's patently dangerous for the psyche. particularly if you're not doing anything but wallowing in a pool of self-pity juice. i did make a kinda cool beat that my mans was geeking over, but in retrospect, it probably wasn't worth the sanity & sleep i may have

2006-09-07T11:03:00.000-04:00

i really don't feel like working.i'm sure that comes as no surprise.i've finished the bulk of my morning routine though, so i figured i'd spit a few thoughts into the blogosphere.i've been kinda depressed recently. i have my moments, everybody does, and i do a good job of being positive overall, but it's been hovering about the premises of my life for a good 3 weeks or so, at least. i guess the

2006-08-30T14:08:00.000-04:00

another wednesday.what's new?hmm. • rent due this weekend.• i owe lankenau hospital $100.• i owe sprint upwards of $150.• sup?typical life of the broke bachelor with bills. perenially behind the 8 ball. these things hardly concern me, though.yesterday, i received a phone call from my youngest brother, jared. he called to inform me that my friend Jermaine died as a result of a car accident. my

2006-08-23T10:39:00.000-04:00

i think i'm coming to a crossroads with this job.i've been operating on half throttle for a minute now, and it's starting to show. my patience is wearing thin with everything involved in maintaining it. i mean, i was focusing on a career change LONG before i ever got this job, so i was already looking past it when i walked in the front doors for the first time.the thought of leaving job security

2006-08-11T11:21:00.000-04:00

*inspired*iono.i just been letting it flow and i've been coming up with some retarded stuff. i ain't mad though. definitely playing keys a whole lot more these days... sampling is getting too tiring, plus i need some good records.so maybe i got me a singer who wants to do a group type thing. my nigga sonya out in nyc was like "yo, lets do this"so i'ma send her some stuff and we're gonna try to

2006-08-08T10:04:00.000-04:00

wrrrrd. © waleoyeah, yo. what's good.so i decided to stay in my apartment. you knew that was gonna happen, right?i'm going to regret it in 4 months, i'm going to be considering it again in 10. unless of course i've finally sold that $50k beat.but until then, i keep the trillion cut diamond shinin' brilliant. © jiggaman@ work on a tuesday. i'm gonna spend some more time with the resume and try to

2006-07-31T13:17:00.000-04:00

little break in the workflow, so i figured i'd holla.day-to-day life blogs are largely depressing. and boring. i think that's why i rarely update this one. everybody's heart broken, poor, hungry, hot/cold, sad. if energy is really being expended into the atmosphere when folks throw those negative vibed blogs out there, do i REALLY need to add to it with more of the same?i thinks not.i'm bent on

2006-07-13T16:26:00.000-04:00

i want a loft, yo.i know, i know. random topic to return from a 3 month hiatus with, but my lease is up, soon.i want a fat ass loft in the center city area. i was looking at some spots on craigslist today, and i got to daydreaming. i mean, i'm pretty much over the food clothing shelter thing. i want a place that i'm excited to come home to. going home to my apartment these days is practically a

2006-04-07T09:56:00.000-04:00

yeah, so. today i have my 6 month review with my supervisors.niggas better give me a good review, as i've turned up the level of grinding to make sure that my review looks good.i need my vacation days to kick in, got a trip planned.i've been thinking about quitting this job tho. not serious serious, but i have been having that desire.(i'll continue later...review time.)______back.review went good

2006-04-07T09:55:00.000-04:00

testing.

2006-02-28T10:24:00.000-05:00

so i went into the ER last thursday night.the whole day, my heart felt like something was off. almost like a fluttering in my chest, and there was a little pressure. i assumed it was something i ate (or hadn't eaten) and i shrugged it off.11 pm that night, i'm sitting down to eat a late dinner and watch Jon Stewart, when my heart starts pounding, and i get light headed, almost like i'm about to

2006-02-16T10:30:00.000-05:00

yeah.i've been neglecting this blog, with reason.firstly, i've only had music on my mind. i'm pretty focused, and i don't wanna lose the drive, so i've been excluding alot of the excelsior. so, not much to write about. secondly, i think i've become afraid of oversharing. it's weird because in person, i'm typically a private dude. not many people know my life story. i'm of the belief that that's

2006-02-10T22:45:00.000-05:00

rip jay dee.jay dee passed today.i'm absolutely devestated.peep.

2005-12-19T13:54:00.000-05:00

return to grace.thanks for all the good words. i'm almost positive that it was the stomach flu. i just did some reading on it, and damn if i didn't exhibit nearly every symptom, including only dealing with it for for about 3 days. whatever tho, it's over with, and i'm not mad.i ended up leaving work early on thursday and not coming in on friday. come to find out that a good portion of the office

2005-12-15T11:12:00.000-05:00

i think i may have the flu.or a stomach virus, or something. point is, i'm sick. last night trace & i went to walmart to pick up a gift card for a coworker of mine. i stood out in the cold for about 15 minutes waiting for a bus. once we had boarded and were on our way, i started feeling queasy. by the time we reached the walmart, im feeling like i have to take a voluminous shit. i find the

2005-12-13T13:06:00.000-05:00

i need another gig.some dollars to compliment the main flow. i'd prefer weekends over nights, and easy work over hard, but at this point, i'll take what i can get.it'd be nice to move some of these beats (again), but until i find real, paying customers, i'll sideline that dream for the reality of the side gig hustle. it's almost gotta be something that i have ostensible talent for, though. i can

2005-12-09T14:46:00.000-05:00

ayo!since the season of giving is fastly approaching, and giving is so much more rewarding than receiving (right?)i thought i'd give all my friends/readers an opportunity to give, and support the cause.Peep.(i'll admit, i bit off my boy Bill, but with good reason. i NEED this stuff.)so yeah. the Treo cases are interchangeable. meaning, one will suffice in place of the other, but i'd like to have

2005-12-02T12:12:00.000-05:00

etc.the end of another week.the UNviscous passage of time has gotten more and more unnerving every week. it's really starting to weird me out. i feel like this week just started, and it's already saturday again. and of course, this translates into blink-long weekends. sometimes i feel like i can't keep up. the good thing, though, is that it makes me work faster to compensate.anyway.i was thinking

2005-11-22T21:19:00.000-05:00

& sht.man.i went to beat society last week.needless to say, the beat bug is definitely back. not to mention the need to make this album.i went to the record store looking for sample laden joints, and i came across some gems.blue magic - thriteen blue magic lane (1975 / ATCO/WMOT)blue magic - mystic dragons (1976 / ATCO/WMOT)norman connors - dance of magic (1972 / Buddah)dexter wansel - what the

2005-11-16T12:49:00.000-05:00

yep!i'm moved in.it's been a slow, stressful transition, but it's finally on the road to wrapping up. i'm still in need of a good sofa (i actually have access to one but being on the third floor with an average size stairwell (it's a converted house) isn't very conducive to bringing up large furniture like that. i had enough trouble with the 27" tv i bought.) it definitely needs other

2005-10-20T00:17:00.000-04:00

word.itsbeen2monthshisorryfortheabsence.pleasantries and obviousness out of the way.i feel slightly angry tonight.i'm a maelstrom of emotion. for whatever reason. point is, i'm here. just felt like airing that out.i have good news.last saturday i completed the process of acquring a lease for an apartment on the southwest side of philadelphia. i'm moving november 1st. looking for apartments was

2005-09-19T11:32:00.000-04:00

9.19i can't believe it's nearly october.incredible.it's been over a month since i've shot an update into the blogosphere... it's about time i hollered back.yeah, so.i think i mentioned that i have a new job, right? it was only a temp position. thing is, i go on full time in a little less than 2 weeks. i applied for it permanently as soon as i could, about one week in to the assignment. this job..

2005-08-10T23:46:00.000-04:00

tomorrow's the big day.got a bit of the nervous thing going.but im excited. pray for us, folks.(i'll expound later)____copped that.it's not an ipod. but i have about 50 albums on it. and they play, and they sound good. so, at this point, i'm not complaining. last lump sum i dump on a non-essential until i move.___________i have something to get off my chest.i hate sideways talk, indirect sniping,

2005-08-04T23:40:00.000-04:00

i'm currently rocking out to "Cater 2 U".-i wish somebody would try to check me on that.i'll admit that dropping an entry in the blog is generally tedious. between working and focus on all the other goals, people and various excelsior in my life, it's hard to carve out an hour or two to write a relatively developed, coherent entry. so, i usually read the blogs of folks in my links list, looking

2005-07-23T00:08:00.000-04:00

.:plethora:....one of the worst days of all time.i got written up for calling out on wednesday.what made it worse was that my manager basically tried to play me on the sales floor. caught me unawares on some, "hey, dave, guess what we did on wednesday? $15,000! (15k worth of sales) they could have used an extra hand! getting here late is ok but calling out is unacceptable... they got pounded on

2005-07-22T01:01:00.000-04:00

so it's been a while.apologies.in the time spanning between this post and the last, a good bit has happened.-firstly, my computer gave me the finger. i havent made a beat, checked much email, etc etc., since thta happened. we back tho.-i called in a claim on my insured Treo 300, and got a Treo 650. for the unintiated, it's the god of smartphones. bluetooth, wifi capability, SD slot for memory

2005-07-03T01:21:00.000-04:00

i am tired.like, TIRED.but i'm focused.pray for me.

2005-06-26T09:55:00.000-04:00

so, i gotta be on the way to work in about 20 minutes.its a sunday.but ya know what? i ain't even complaining. it's a hustle, and i AM making my money, so i can't be mad at that.i've been on a stretch of late, most recently going five straight, including 3 closings. it's not so bad, until you calculate in 2 hour travel times each way. 8 hour days become what seems like 12-13 hour days, and you

2005-06-10T01:47:00.000-04:00

good news.i sold my first beat yesterday.the feeling is...euphoric.getting paid was nice, but that was a small percentage of the overwhelming feeling of accomplishment. what's more, is that now i'm so amped to move more units. it's infinitely gratifying when someone digs your creative expressions enough to want to pay their hard-earned money for it. even better is that i sold it to a cat with

2005-06-03T10:50:00.000-04:00

aight so... im playin hooky from work so that I can apply for this "job".son.iono yo, can't even explain it. this sht is obviously for idiots. idiots with strong backs. there's this cat here who's been doing the paperwork we got for the past 30 minutes, with a look on his face that suggests he has no idea what any of it means... yeah... he belongs..why me yo?why they tryna make me get my pity

2005-05-31T14:20:00.000-04:00

what a day.sometimes, yo. i don't even know why i try.today was my day off, after working ALL of memorial day weekend. i had planned to go to the bank and cash my first lenscrafters check, head to a bookstore and peruse the periodicals section, then run home and hop on the computer a bit, see what musical goodness i could come up with.9:12am, my dad calls me out of my sleep, and asks me to move

2005-05-25T14:05:00.000-04:00

my life is dumb disorganized right now.i have alotta prioritizing to do, get my workflow back in order.good news though... i'm about to make a couple of sales, yo. how exciting is that?oh, and i did a logo, sorta:i still need webdesign, tho. once i get that started, i can get the business practice afoot!i think this could be the year._____________________i hate work.this sht ain't me, ain't no

2005-05-24T01:22:00.000-04:00

its here!2 days before expected, too.works like a charm.locks in with FL Studio, i love it.____________________so. work sucks. to be expected, right? basically. dont gotta be in til 1pm tomorrow tho. that'd be doubly great if it didn't take me 2.5 hours to get to work... but i'll take it.gonna do some record shopping this week.the dream lives on!

2005-05-15T15:58:00.000-04:00

son, i had to.ok, i didn't have to. but i did. a steal too. MSRP is $249.95. i paid waaaay less than that. 's looking real good for the drums, yo.it's a beast!be back with more later.

2005-05-11T01:04:00.000-04:00

i feel pretty crappy.yeah i know, le wife visited. what is he talkin' about, right? had a great weekend, but all good things must come to an end.tomorrow is wednesday, start-date for a new position i've accepted as a salesperson at a LensCrafters in montgomeryville, pa.yeah. i'm noticing more and more the ill-effects of not having a degree.of course, having a degree can mean very little too...

2005-04-29T00:48:00.000-04:00

i discovered song structure today!or at least rap.fat joe - safe 2 say (produced by just blaze)2+16+8+16+8+16+8+8- 2 bar intro- 16 bar verse- 8 bar hook- 16 bar verse- 8 bar hook- 16 bar verse hook- 8 bar hook- 8 bar fade outyes!how simple is that?! yo i swear i should have done this before. of course, there are variations to that particular mapping out of hook-verse, but yeah. it's really simple

2005-04-28T00:12:00.000-04:00

god is not optional.i guess one of the hardest things for me to reconcile to is that the world runs on opinions, and that questioning anybody's entitlement to their opinions, regardless of the subject matter, is liable to get you crucified, or at least fingered as intolerant, fundamentalist and conservative.ugh.is anything irrefutably wrong?is everything REALLY optional and guided by the current

2005-04-25T22:54:00.000-04:00

inspiration.i was on the bus riding home from an interview today, and i decided i'd pop kanye west's college dropout in the cd player. up until this point, i had never given the cd a full fair spin, and it's crazy because i actually bought this cd. the day it dropped.i get through the album, and come to a song with beat i had heard before... Last Call.why this song bring me to tears yo?i dont

2005-04-24T01:25:00.000-04:00

testing.still tryna decide whether i'm gonna stick with this or not. lemme know what you think.

2005-04-17T23:34:00.000-04:00

streamlining for the cause.are you streamlining, my friends?i am.to streamline is:1. To improve the appearance or efficiency of; modernize.2. To organize.3. To simplify.exactly.i find that in various parts of my life, i have too many hinderances that slow my overall process. whether its beatmaking, or friendships, it's just mad excelsior in the way of a smooth flow. and it's been coagulating for

2005-04-15T02:11:00.000-04:00

i dunno why i thought coming here was a good idea. I don't even where to begin.oh. I got my phone workin ok....good night.

2005-04-13T02:24:00.000-04:00

so. im posting from my new phone, which I might add, is a piece of shit. *sigh*it is cool that I can post from it, but come on. this is ridiculous. I tell you, folks. somtimes cells aren't worth the headache. btw: if you're reading this and we talk/have talked on the phone- give me your # sometime soon. gotta fill the phone book back up.thnx.

2005-04-06T00:42:00.000-04:00

terry schiavo.since everybody and their mother has had an expressed opinion on the case, i'll offer mine, albeit unfashionably late.i think intentionally starving anything living, vegetative state or not, to death, is an infinitely cruel way to end the life.i don't care how you make your feeble attempts to justify it.let us imagine, for instance, i have filthy vermin, namely mice, plaguing my

2005-03-24T17:11:00.000-05:00

Sprinting to no where, and FAST.sprint is currently the highest grossing cellular service provider. somehow, with less customers than both verizon and cingular. with the soon-to-be-completed merger/buyout(?) of nextel, they will make more than cingular and verizon COMBINED.amazingly, there's no underhanded thievery going on behind the backs of the giant's patient customer base. no, on the

2005-03-19T13:54:00.000-05:00

what up duns?you thought i left you. never that.roberta flack's chapter 2 on the turntable. "Gone Away" with donny hathaway and curtis mayfield, is just sick.she's killin it.anyway.i did alot of thinking on my trip to myrtle beach.mostly about career and life choices, me hitting 25, and the significance of it all. it's funnny, but i kinda like where i am. who i run with.i feel lucky to have come

2005-01-21T03:38:00.000-05:00

3:38am. can't sleep. or rather, opting not to. got a gang of brainfodder on the plate. i dunno. 15 minutes ago, i felt like writing, but the feeling's all but left. anyway. i start class next monday. at approximately 7pm, i'll be at the university of the arts, taking on my first pseudo-legit recording engineering course. i'm excited. it's not new york, but i figure that any education beyond

2005-01-12T22:55:00.000-05:00

update. i'm cool. on my hustle jawn, quiet as kept. nobody understands fully, but they'll soon get it. kinda in a somber mood; been that way pretty much all day. i'll get over it. so. i went to nyc and it was ok. it was cold. it rained a bit. but i dont see myself getting up there by march. too much money, too little time. alas. but the dream's not dead yet. i have plans, it aint over.

2004-12-31T07:54:00.000-05:00

its early. wifey's sleep on the phone. ive been up for about an hour. for no good reason, i've been waking up at the 1st release of sunlight and passing out for a good 4 hours at 8 in the evening. it's a horrible schedule, and i'ma have to rectify that with urgency. but, i'm up, so i figured i'd write. yesterday was my last day. very laid back, not a whole lot of pomp and circumstance, i

2004-12-30T01:09:00.000-05:00

it's time. long timespan between my last entry and now, but i had shit to do. sorry. i've been working. tomorrow's my last day at my current job. i'm upset, but i'm glad sorta. whatever. that's how the game goes. big plans for the 05. what, exactly? can't say. just big. music is right now the second most important thing in my life. and it's scary because i have no reason to believe that

2004-09-22T23:09:00.000-04:00

i got work to do. © vanessa williams (names have been changed to protect the innocent) AeonRock: do you think i lack focus? sakniculous: sometimes _______________________ AeonRock: do you think i need focus? Iszinz: hm AeonRock: like do you see me as lacking it Iszinz

2004-09-19T22:32:00.000-04:00

$ and the lack thereof. ::i promise, this is the last sob story for a long time:: i planned so hard to be in nyc this past weekend. i thought about it hard. i only wish that mattered. at all. i had my school visit. i had the dave chappelle concert. i had beat society. all lined up like one great weekend pay off for finding a job and what not. but i had no money. you know... it's not so

2004-09-14T13:12:00.000-04:00

btw. i found this funny. dunno if you can see it, but thats my old boss telling me nicely not to use my old job as work reference. whatever dude, i got squad who can vouch, i put in work while i was there. b!chz.

2004-09-14T11:06:00.000-04:00

so... my computer is down. there goes the beats. if anyone who reads this has passed the CompTIA/A+ cert, holler here. in other news: i be leaving freaky voicemails. only for the sown and grexy.

2004-09-10T14:16:00.000-04:00

just 'cause i know you're tired of the poem. sup tho. it's been a crazy couple of weeks. entry prior to last, i quit and was rehired. well- i quit again. lol emailed in my final letter of resignation. that was actually about 2 weeks ago. since then things have been nuts, in a real relaxed way. but good news... i got a new job. it's whatever really. it's in south philly and my day STARTS

2004-08-22T14:23:00.000-04:00

she's gauzed deep in her intricate tales of anonymous protagonists and broken promises gathered in the corners of her eyes and under her fingernails from where she's scratched out her niche in the backs of men stupid enough to fk with her fury they only teasing her canal cause aint a man yet long enough to tap that which be wasting away in half hearted notebook fillers and heart felt

2004-08-21T13:44:00.000-04:00

okay. so, i'm going to sit here and force a complete blog entry out. interesting things have been going on recently. first off, my job. i skipped work on thursday. i was going to be late, and since i had already been sent home because of being three minutes late earlier in the week, i didn't even waste my time continuing the journey to work. i stopped midstride, went back home, and started

2004-08-17T14:09:00.000-04:00

so wait. that's three dollars more than i make now? hallah!!! *leads you all in prayer*

2004-08-12T13:31:00.000-04:00

decisions. recv'd a call today, about 10:38 am. 856 number, which i automatically recognize as a jersey number. i ignore it, since i'm at work. i figure they can leave a msg. phone rings again, @ 10:39am. same number. now im mentally scanning names i know in jersey. south jersey, really. voicemail this time. werd. i'll check it at lunch. phone rings again. i grab it, duck out the office

2004-07-27T20:25:00.000-04:00

the cup runneth over. spilleth, even. right to the meat of things, then. i is caught up in overwhelming inward conflict, and have been for some time. i'm jealous. and i'm lecherous. and i'm ambitious. and i'm trapped. and i'm lazy. and i'm uninspired. and i'm in love. and i'm afraid. and i'm broke. and i'm contemplating God. and i be driving a lot more than i used to. and my car be

2004-06-28T19:32:00.000-04:00

sup. trust that, in these massive expanses of passed time between new posts, that i'm doing insane amounts of thinking, contemplating my navel sans the pretense, if you will. about what, you ask? do i really have to go there yo? i do? *sigh* work. future. the lady. and all the sub-categorical etcetera therein. first off, the trip was all it was cracked up to be and more. i needed it more

2004-06-21T14:12:00.000-04:00

back from vay kay. unfortunately. sometimes i wonder. is it better to have held heaven for 7 days and suffer the ultimate suffering upon the inevitable release, or just be moderately miserable all the time?

2004-05-24T10:40:00.000-04:00

feeling much better, thanks. i guess my issues have been resolved, or rather i'm just going to ignore them for the time being. i've got some new ones, though. i took the car in for inspection last friday. was on the cell all day getting reports from my sisters and my dad about how the whole thing was going. apparently, in order to pass vehicle inspection, i need $300 worth of work done to the

2004-05-19T19:03:00.000-04:00

son you thought i was feeling bad this afternoon?! ha! i mean. son! yo first, people who are supposed to be making shit move in order to have this car in working order by saturday are slipping. hard. why can't people do what i say? i say, hey, gillian (that's pronounced like 'jillian')- since you're gonna be home tomorrow, why don't you run to the titles place and get the tags and title

2004-05-19T11:06:00.000-04:00

posting @ work. manager is out. one of those types of days. i've been in a bit of a stinky mood recently. kinda reclusive. it's always a little thing that triggers these moods, usually something i can't remember 2 or 3 days later. been going to bed early, waking up early and speaking to no one. it'll go away though. i started a few new blogs. i'll link em once i'm sure what i'll be doing

2004-05-05T13:29:00.000-04:00

i can't wait until i take vacation. i'm going as far away from all familiarity as possible, and staying away for the duration. i need that. until vacation, though, it's gonna be lots of hard work- financial overcompensation in behalf of substantial monetary cushioning- via overtime. it's hard on the body, but being able to get away and not assume pauper mode is worth it. i'm on lunch, so i

2004-05-02T03:53:00.000-04:00

EDITOR's NOTE: . . .bah! gene!!! why you going to wait until approximately the 14th of never to get at my query?! gimme a bit to recapture some lucidity, not to mention my intent with the original posting, and i'll get back at you.

2004-05-02T03:42:00.001-04:00

five two 0h four. *acts like he's been here the whole time* i don't know how much more i could possibly emphasize this, but, god. i love this time of year. it just makes me feel all tingy and good. i'm sitting here with my window wide open, enjoying the breeze- the just desserts for a good, productive day. i didn't really do much, honestly. washed the car, cleaned my room, re-sleeved

2004-03-29T21:04:00.000-05:00

first: i don't consider myself a feminist. some of the dogma that falls under the "feminism" umbrella i readily agree with, but to assume the full undertaking is currently beyond my available resources. hence, i'm pretty ignorant. but, in developing my manist-festo, i've come across a few question for those professed feminists who gander mine scribblings- is feminism self actuated theory?

2004-02-19T14:00:00.000-05:00

word. gotta be quick hits here, because i'm running overtime on the lunch period. so yeah. 1) went to hear amiri baraka speak yesterday, for a john coltrane tribute town meeting something or another. he came weak on phrenology, but damn. dude is sick. 2) i think i've got my write back. so many ideas in the past couple of days. i think it's because i've been stewing in a bunch of personal