polyphony.

i am so tired.


i stayed up last night, cleaning my room and talking to myself. i think i finally hit the bed around 3:45am. i would like to take a nap RIGHT NOW, but i'm forcing myself to stay awake, so when i do finally go to bed, i'll be tired enough to get my needed sleep at a normal time. the bore factor of my life isn't helping my cause any- my body is like "yo, you assmunch, let me sleep!".

in due time, little one.

see, i'm on a mission to regain control of my life, taking whatever small steps are available, until i've made progress. still in that underdog phase, but it's not just about feeling bad for myself; it's also making concerted effort to change shit. it feels good.

i haven't been in contact with folk much... i kind of feel bad about that. i guess i've become a bit disenchanted with my relationships with people at the moment. i hope i don't sound like a fucking head case... it's just that, sometimes, you get a 1-2-3 punch of shit that affects you negatively, and you just need to pull away from it all. but i'd rather change things, get proactive about myself, than sit there and revel in my assumed misfortune. my work ethic is already improving.

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just ate dinner. needed that.


i'm going to see if i can figure out acid pro. be back later.