i think sometimes i try too hard.
particularly in the wrong areas.
whatever though, cats will understand soon.
so, i get my soundcard soon. it's paid for. i dunno, i talk about this music stuff so much. i hope it pans out for me like i intend it to. i hope cats wanna listen to my shit too. i mean, i tell cats that once i get this off my chest, if it doesn't fly, i'll be glad that i had the opportunity to release some expression. but i dunno if i believe that totally. and i wonder if the fact that i really want folks to like my shit saps at the honesty of my expression, whatever it may be.
i swear i think too much.
and i get the feeling that people don't believe me. it makes me angry. i dunno man. i'm tired and confused, and i've got the music bug up my butt.
good night.